Moving On

Why is it that I am so afraid of you getting into other phases of life ?
why is it that i am so afraid of you meeting new people, new boundaries and new you
why is it that I am so afraid of letting myself free?
i ran and ran trying to find an answer
My heart ponders, and I look up the sky
The wind breeze and the leaves shaken
I ran and ran trying to see beyond it
My legs weaken, and I sink into the sadness
The people passing by, the lovers and the laughter
that i burned in my memory.
trying to make the visible untouchable and invisible
why is it that i am so afraid
What is it that I am so afraid of?
Moving on
I am so afraid of moving on
So afraid that you will move on
so all that we have been through were just pieces of memories that
one day will disappear in time
like the rotten bodies , the rotten dream and the rotten life
it is already hard enough to accept but yet
the fear is around the corner to hit me in the face
give me a peace of mind
so that i can conquer and so that i can look back without regret
without fear
without you
What is become of me?

Coldwater

Coldwater, surrounds me now
without you, my heart is sinking into the blue ocean..
Coldwater, surrouds me now , I can't let go of your hands even when your shadow is there to take its place..
coldwater, surrounds me now,
hitting me with a wall of silence,
echoing the laughters of the past, what is left to hear?
Coldwater, surrounds me now,
with its warmest stillness and receiving my quietest scream , inside me , powerless , to hold the grip,
yet cold water, surrounds me now with its softest love and the only thing that is left to spare.

floating yet not drifting anymore...
total surrender and whiteness of waves moving my body and soul and keeping still
Cold water, surrounds me now..
nothing is going to take me away

dreaming with a broken heart

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
the waking up is the hardest part
you roll out of bed and down on your knees
and for a moment you hardly breathe

Wondering
Was he really here?
Is he standing in my room?
No he's not
Cause he 's gone gone , gone, gone , gone

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
the giving up is the hardest part
he takes you in with his presence and smile
then all at once, you have to say goodbye

Wondering
could you stay, my love?
And will you wake up by my side?
No he can't
cause he is gone, gone , gone, gone

Now do I have to fall asleep with tears in my eyes?
Do i have to fall asleep with tears in my eyes?
and would you see them if i did ?
No you won't
cause you gone, gone , gone, gone , gone

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part.

席幕容之月光曲

據說　用月光取暖的女子從不受傷
有處曠野容許她重新長出枝葉

學會了煞有介事地遺忘　學會了
轉身再轉身然後重新開始
學會了聆聽所有語言裡不同的音節
學會了像別人一樣也用密碼去寫詩

讓欲望停頓在結局之前的地方
將巨大的精心繪製的藍圖寄放在
山岡高處
他的白木屋裡向晚微微暗去的牆上
──一九九一年五月二十二日
席幕容